Jan 2, Gen. 4-5

God is showing me that doing wrong – thinking wrong doesn’t “dis”-accept me from God (Gen. 4:6-7). It puts me face to face with an enemy that wants to control me.  When we do wrong we are still loved and accepted because of the blood of Jesus and it being applied to our “account”.  That “account” is the punishment for our sin because we have chosen to be jealous and angry (as in this case).  So God’s acceptance of me and His relationship with me never change with my acting out against his will except for my tendency to be ruled by whatever “sin” I may be doing.  In my mind at times, I become the problem, or God is the problem, when all along it is the sin that is the problem.  If I would realize that sin is the one attacking me, I would fight it as an enemy and my relationship with God and myself would remain unharmed.  Paul talks about this in Romans 7.  It is not as if I am absolving myself from responsibility, because I am the one who is allowing sin to “master me”.  However, I am not the enemy!  God is not the enemy!  Nothing can ever separate me from God’s love (Rom. 8:39), not even sin!  Sin separates me from what God wants me to have – the most unhindered life possible!  Freedom from anger, jealousy, bitterness…, toward others, towards myself, or even towards Him! 

Sin is crouching (sneaking-trying not to be detected) at my door.  I will be like Enoch, who in Gen. 5 is the only one who is written about as; one who walked with God.  I will walk with God and kick the sin that is crouching at my door in the teeth, and I will never fear abandonment from my Father in Heaven.