December 10

Acts 20:24 (NIV)
24 However, I consider my life worth nothing to me, if only I may finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me—the task of testifying to the gospel of God’s grace.

Just this morning 2 evident flaws of my life showed themselves in glaring fashion. As I read this passage I couldn’t pass this verse without thinking I wish I could do that. I know that I can, but it just seems so hard. When things are going well we Christians can quote a verse like this with a smile on our face and preach it like Charles Spurgeon. However when you are hit in the face with a 2 x 4 about things in your life (not moral sins), this verse takes on longing. If I could live, really, think like this, I wouldn’t be so bummed about other things. If my life, my house, others opinions, or anything else didn’t matter so much, I would be so much freer to serve the Lord.

Help me to die to my life Lord. I am vexed by my own care, which seems good until it crushes me under it’s weight. I am undone before you today. I long to serve you with all I have. Help me dispose of these weights so I can be unleashed all the more. I will finish my race Lord – I am confident you will complete it with me. I give myself to you freshly today – I can’t run my life, there is too much worry in that. You are my source, my everything – I yield to you.