October 19

It has been quite some time since I have entered a blog post. It seems that the new groove that God has asked of me isn’t as easy as one might think. It takes so much more effort to change what you have been doing compared to the amount of effort that it takes to continue in a certain direction. Honestly, it was great to have the blog subject picked for me every day by the scripture I read. The Holy Spirit did need to quicken me to the portion of scripture or subject matter within the scripture to write on, but it was much less effort than asking God what the next post is to be.

I do feel bad for those of you who do look to the blog for encouragement. My apologies go out to you. I have found that this new order of things is very difficult and takes way more effort than before.

Just yesterday I was talking to the Lord about this and feeling like I have failed Him. I want to go back to the old way of doing things because it was, well…. Easier. He isn’t too concerned with how easy it is for me, He has a plan that He wants me to carry out. That plan includes difficulty and that difficulty is going to stretch me and build into me what I need for the future.

I can’t help but ask you if you are supposed to be attaining your next level by changing what you have been doing. Maybe not, but if you stop and listen, maybe God is asking you to go to the next level of difficulty, the one that requires more depth and more sacrifice. Why not go for it? If you fail at it at first, just keep going! His grace is enough!